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Time is ticking by… 🕐

I cannot believe just how quickly this year is going! As I write this we are just a few days away from September…

September is quickly approaching and honestly? I don’t know how ready I am. September means that I start my second year at University, a terrifying concept. I’m nervous, I know things are due to get a lot harder. But I am also very ready, before I know it it’ll be my graduation day! The image I have of graduation has been a huge motivation throughout my recovery journey too!

Inspired by this quickly approaching concept I have decided to set myself a goal. This goal doesn’t have a time limit set to it and it’s going to take some doing but I am really determined. I WILL DO IT.

This goal is: learn to live in the present.

The way I arrived to this goal is through the huge amount of overthinking and reflecting that I’ve done recently; I have caught myself thinking “I wish I could go back to school for just one more day” or, “I wish I could just have one more day at college”. We all know I can’t turn back time though, no-one can. Obviously there are days that I definitely wouldn’t like to go back to, like my inpatient admission.

I spend so much time worrying about the past and the future that I tend to ignore what is going on in the present. I’m sure a pig could fly past my face and I wouldn’t notice because I’m spending too much time worrying about what has happened and what is going to happen.

So… I want to learn to appreciate my current moment. Especially during the really good times. This can be done by simply just putting my phone away and really soaking up those memories. Taking videos at concerts really helps me though as, during the darker days, I can watch them and transport myself back to those moments.

I always remember adults saying to me when I was young “time will fly by as you get older” and yeah, they’re absolutely right and truthfully, it’s a scary concept. So in addition to this goal, I am going to try and push myself out of my comfort zone more and really enjoy that moment.

I’m not sure how well my goal is going to go, how long it’ll take me or just how I am going to do it. I have noticed I’ve been saying to myself; “Remember this moment as it won’t last forever”, more and more recently. Maybe that’s a start and I will discover more ways to do it. Essentially it is like a small seed that’s just been planted in my head which will hopefully blossom into a beautiful flower.

I will keep you updated on how my journey develops, and if anyone has any suggestions, I’d really appreciate it! It won’t change my blog posts too much as remembering my past helps to continue to raise awareness of mental health issues.

I’m sorry this is only a short post but there will be more to come next week!

Lots of love and thanks for reading!

The Battle in my Brain Author X X X